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October 4th, 2005

07:30 pm - this quiz isnt great but the pic was hehe
Murrz Ramirez
You are a cross between human and vampire, having
just been bitten.

Are You a Vampire?
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September 29th, 2005

09:13 am - i stole this from mel
If you read this,
even if we do not speak often,
comment with one memory of me.
It can be anything you want,
good or bad.
Just as long as it happened.
Then post this on your livejournal.
See what other people remember about you...
Current Mood: creativecreative
Current Music: UM..this band thats really good BUT I CANT TEL U THEIR NAME

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September 22nd, 2005

05:34 pm - hehe
You're a dreamer. Smart and probably a little
sarcastic, you tend to have your head stuck in
the clouds. You love things like writing or
art, creating things from your own mind and
bringing them to life. You are an observer,
listening instead of talking. You can tell who
a person is by just listening to them for a
little bit. You are also a little bit lonely,
probably hurt from trusting someone too much.
You believe in love, but you know the pain it
can bring. You forgive a little too easily, but
you can also hold a grudge longer than anyone.
Know that not everyone is a nice person and
some people will take advantage of your seeming
naivete. Be a little more cautious but for the
most part, don't change.

Your Personality (detailed outcomes)
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September 20th, 2005

01:58 pm - Destined for a life of Mediocrity
AH! my day is just shitty. i hate hate hate being poor! its not even like i want all this expensive shit! i would just like the fucking basics like school textbooks or the supplies i need for school, i am never going to get anywhere in life because i am never going to be able to finish school because i have no fucking money! my financial aid has STILL not come in. And im so pissed off that i have to do so shitty in my classes just because i dont have the freakin stuff i need, and that fact that i have to DRIVE somewhere every fucking time i need a computer! as if gas is bad enough just getting to the places i have to go!... it is so frustrating ::wants to lay down and die from frustration:: and it doesnt help that i have so much fucking pride that i cant ask for help. i cant ask my family they just cant afford it, im really at a loss as to what to do, today in design i had to use borrowed paint from the girl who sits next to me cause a teeny tiny little tube of it is like 10 dollars. and i needed 3 tubes. i mean she said it was ok and i believe but i felt like SUCH a mooch i hate borrowing shit and i hate owing people things.Im really starting to wonder why i continue to try and get a college degree cause its just going no where at this point, im failing classes already and if i cant get a 3.0 by the end of this year i lose the one scholarship i had. GOD Damnit!! IM FUCKING going to end up in lakeland again working at like wal mart for the rest of my life. just like my parents in their retirement years with bad credit and 3 mortgages. WHY! i just dont get it, do i not have enough drive? Do i not want success badly enough?? what am i doing wrong.
SIGH and on top of taht i was up for like 24 hours on sunday cause lindsay had her baby, so fucking tired and cranky but honestly yeah it was the most amazing expierance, she has a beautiful little boy :-D! So im still reeling from that whole expierance,
and then theres all this shit i have to do at work, this whole hurricane relief program is my idea, so now i have to make it work, and its going no where like the rest of my life,
and mel i noticed your entries where definitly on teh down side?? what going on woman?? how are things with you, are u ok?

got go
Current Mood: grumpygrumpy
Current Music: Anberlin-Paper Thin Hymn

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September 15th, 2005

07:17 pm - Again very cool
You are an assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your
job without mixing any emotions in it. In your
life you have probably been hurt many times and
have gotten some mental scars. This results in
you being distant from people. Though many
think that you are evil, you are not. What you
really are is a person, trying to forget your
pain and past. You are the person who never
seems to care and that is why being an assassin
fits you good. Atleast, that's what people
think. Even if you don't care that much for
your victims, you still have the ability to
care and to generally feel. It is not lost,
just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to
not get to noticed, and dress in black or other
discrete colours. You don't being in the
spotlight and wish people would just leave you
alone. But once you do get close to someone you
have a hard time letting go and get real down
if you loose him/her.

Main weapon: Sniper
Quote: "The walls we build around
us to keep out the sadness also keep out the
joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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07:06 pm - YAY
You are an Angel of Darkness!

you live in the shadows, and no one knows who you
really are. You are a good fighter, and will
not hesitat to kill when threatened. But you
aren't all evil, you are beautiful, and have a
very good heart.

color: black, and dark purple
Song lyrics: "Fallen angels at my feat,
whispered voices at my ear, death before my
eyes, lyingnext to me i fear"

Which elemental fantasy creature are you? ~~AWESOME PICS~~
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06:56 pm
ralph wiggum
you're ralph wiggum! of course you may be just a
tad strange but you're just so cute! it's
pretty hard not to laugh at whatever random
thing you say but you do have feelings that can
get hurt easily. it's ok though you're super
cool to me!

Which Unpopular Simpson Character Are U?
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02:57 pm - When did i stop using titles?
wow how crazy is this that im bored in my math class, because i actually know whats going on..::surprised:: but once again im using the class puter for my personal uses muwahaha, i wonder if anyone would notice if i took the puter with me when i left class, lol. no but seriously my plan tonight, another bleak evenig with very little to look forward to, mayb i can get brian out of the apartment. Im prob cooking dinner tonight, more hamburger helper...mm..yum. and this weekend im off but lindsay is about to have her baby so i cant go home i have to stick around in case she decides to go into labor, but i might go to the beach with my neighbor Rose. ah thats it i got nothing, but i would like to say to crystal that ur new page is awesome looking i really love it. :-D
Current Mood: surprisedsurprised
Current Music: Trust-Adema

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September 14th, 2005

09:03 pm
Ok NOW i can really update i was in lindsays room and i just could not concentrate with those two smooching in the background i mean really i was RIGHT there did they HAVE to do that, so i borrowed haleys house key and she let me come here to use the puter while shes at the bar. who would have thought that haley would become the one person i ran to anytime i needed something, even just a quiet place to just go and hide, i should be at my own apartment doing homework but its so lonely and empty there right now,....i feel so alone. i hate that more than anything, but i had someone point out to me the other day that i should drop my asocial habits but its not really a matter of choice by nature i shy away from social gatherings, i always feel so awkward, and idiotic like ill never say or do the right thing, like a puzzle piece that doesnt fit and u have to pound it into the puzzle with your fist, and im so tired of being beat on, of relentlessly trying to make myself fit into a world that really doesnt want me to begin with. how is it possible to feel so out of touch with humanity, but i am, people have been telling me for years im too sensitive i cry at the silliest things, things other people wouldnt think twice about, or i feel for things that no one else feels. And WHY am i feeling so particularly fragile now? i finally got past that "im living in a new place" stage where i cried every night for a week, and now im just feeling alone again, yes again, there doesnt seem to be any direction in my life I KNOW what i want i really do but im not getting there, its like when your trying to run away from the monster in your nightmares but you can never run fast enough to get away from him. 3 years of college and i have very little, in my opinion, to show for it...and i had the most, strange yet, some how comforting dreams last night, i cant explain it here, but it made me wake up with this feeling of urgency this morning, and all day ive been thinking about it and when i could finally do something about relieving this horrible pain in me tonight, i couldnt...and now that the day is practically over, its faded, but im still left with the shell and im scared, no terrified,....somthing is about to happen, and im not sure if its good or bad, Mel remember how clarvioant i use to be, well its like i can still feel things but i cant tell which direction they are going. What was it this morning??? the urgency was suffocating and now its a lead wieght in my stomach.
Current Mood: scaredscared
Current Music: Adeema

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06:51 pm - Ah sigh
im here on lindsays puter, cause i ate dinner here so i thought id update, nothing really going on school is boring and makes me want to cry, reading phantom again, sigh i love that book every time more and more.
Honestly though, my head is so full,... all this stuff just swirling around and pounding agaist my heart and brain. ::trails off into thought:: (sighs)

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